Grey Tuesday

Sometimes this world really depresses me; maybe it’s the grey cold weather or the fact that I consume too much news either way, it sucks.

I find this feeling occurs more after I’ve had a good night out or I’m feeling lonely, but the main underlining cause remains: I’ll read something in the news (or something similar) and can’t believe what I’m reading (read: can’t believe the world I’m living in).

Case in point: Had a great evening last night with some friends over – great food, great conversation etc… Today it’s grey out, I’m working, listening to the Destroyer show I recently saw (which makes me feel happy) and then bah-da-bum… I read this horrific headline:

U.S. speeds up delivery of big bomb

Wait what? WHAT????
Rewind

What happened to Mr. Nobel Peace Prize? What happened to we hate Iran for having a nuclear program? What happened to we’re a broke country?

Ok now it’s time to read the article, let’s see if there’s anything to dispel these depressive grey thoughts whirling around my brain. Hmm.. well the first paragraph only confirms what I’m feeling:

The Pentagon is speeding up delivery of a colossal bomb designed to destroy hidden weapons bunkers buried underground and shielded by 4,535 kilograms of reinforced concrete.Call it Plan B for dealing with Iran, which recently revealed a long-suspected nuclear site deep inside a mountain near the holy city of Qom.

I’m not sure I can handle reading more. I don’t care if this program is from the Bush years Snr. or Jnr. If Mr. “Yes we can” Obama is truly worthy of a Nobel Peace Prize (please), then this program would have ended. Our current connotations of “peace”, “terrorist”, “fundamentalist”, “Muslim”, “Arabic” etc… are all very twisted and warped. All of a sudden a country building a huge bomb is a peace loving country and yet, anyone else who does it is a terrorist. Well, well, well…what can I say to this besides the obvious (hypocrites).

I do not understand this world at all. I do not understand how I can go from having a nice evening to hating this world. I do not understand how we can live in a world full of hatred where a country preaches peace and proclaims everyone else as “evil” and yet their President can win a freaking Nobel Peace Prize FOR DOING NOTHING. Ooh you inspired hope, big fucking deal. If you got rid of this bomb and worked on changing perceptions, we wouldn’t need to be inspired to feel hope because the world would be a better place (in theory). I can talk the talk too, but can you actually walk the walk? Certainly seems like you cannot Sir.

Screw this, our current connotations for “power”, “money”, “consumption”, “greed”,”business”, “equality”, “humanism”, “socialism”, “conservatism” and “love” are all warped beyond repair. Where do we go from here when the terms I just listed are warped… the negatives ones are seen as positive and the positive as negative. What is this? WHAT IS THIS?